Lies

Tonight I walked outside in the cold air under the phenomenal starry sky. If I could say anything I would say my heart was heavy. My trust in the Lord has never been tested so much in my life and I was feeling weak. My heart was exhausted fighting the lie that I'm not that valuable or worth that much. It was the following moments that revealed the fogginess clouding my mind.

I lifted my eyes to stare at the stars. The brilliant sky glimmered as several planes flew among the beauty. Honestly it was all so beautiful but the cold wind blew from the west making my tears feel like ice. Yet, I couldn't leave. As I stared up I realized I wasn't seeing the big picture yet; I was only seeing a portion of it. So with my gloved hands I blocked out the two spot lights by raising my hands. In that moment the Lord impressed on my heart this is what He wants me to do; to lift my hands to Him not giving lies the light of day - which cause destructive thinking and hopelessness - but to raise those hands and say, "Here I am. Show me your truth to this lie...teach me to walk in your ways." It doesn't mean that those lies won't stop trying to skew your vision but every time raising your hands to say, "Father, I am so weak, what do I do? Forgive me Father, show me your truth. Use me as you can..." That revelation lifted a heaviness off my shoulders. Of course sometimes it's not easy to follow God. Yet I'm not trading it for the world!

Why does Satan reuse lies he's used before in new ways that seem believable once again? I suppose I shouldn't ask, why. He doesn't want the Kingdom of God to expand. But my prayer is to let every breathe and all that I am never cease to worship The Lord of all the Earth. For I know, truly know, that as I acknowledge Him, He will direct me and lead me as His peace transcends all my understanding guarding my heart.

His ways are higher than my ways, He is without fault, and man! He invites me to follow Him because he more than likes me He Loves me! Golly, my value is established in Him not in the lies that sometimes dictate my emotions.